Don’t really Want to

I’m suffering an extreme case of meh.

Pretty much don’t really want to do anything right now, getting dressed eating and going to my mindfulness session currently seem like a mountain not worth climbing – this is not the attitude that writes a PhD oh no. In fact this is not an attitude that achieves much beyond sleeping and staring.

I have got to drag my sorry arse out and about and kick the feeling of useless pointlessness in the teeth….right after I curl up here a bit longer.

Today’s goals:

  • To get to Mindfulness (despite having failed at my homework utterly for several weeks now).
  • To open my thesis and write at least 1 sentence
  • to go back to bed


Since I have been rubbish at concentrating on my thesis I have been procrastinating by checking guidelines on what makes a good thesis. I started by re-reading the PGR handbook and University TQA manual, apart from checking my margins and double-checking I have formatted all my footnotes correctly I learnt nothing. I have also searched the internet – It is all very well saying it must be of sufficient quality and original but what does that quality entail. How do I know if its good enough? Aargh

Realistically what I need to do is spew out more of the bulk before trying to re-write. Just need that kick up the arse and to stop feeling sorry for myself.


I have thought quite hard about something  positive to end the post with. So far I have come up with the fact that my shoulder hurts less than when I went to sleep and that I have Jasper Fforde waiting to be read on my Kindle.

Each victory is important.


2 thoughts on “Don’t really Want to

  1. Right! I have achieved step 1 – dressed, left the house, walked into town and made it to mindfulness. I feel a bit better for doing it.
    Sadly I still feel like a useless drain on resources and now I ache. ouch 😦
    Bit by bit

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